So I toyed with entitling this post Scarred leadership, or vulnerable leadership particularly as it relates to an earlier post in part looking at the issue of vulnerability.
Having now had the stitches removed from my oporation, it has struck me that i will have to live with the scars from the oporation, the scars will never completely totally disappear.
The challenge or question for me, is how do i live with that knowledge, but also with the reality fo the scars.
Life leaves us with many scars, teh process of having the oporation on my back has made me revisit happenings in my past, around losing my eyesight and has made me more aware of things i went through that i was previously unaware of.
I, We, live with so many scars, so many things that have happened in our lives, the challenge is for us more around how do we live the lives that God has for us wwith the scars and vulnerability of our lives?
As I have prayed and reflected upon this, it struck me, that Jesus also had to do some of this. His scars from his crucifixion never left him! thomas asked to see the wounds, he was given the opportunity to place hsi hands in the wounds, the scars ofa all he went through were there for for people to see, and yet Jesus was able to carry these scars live in the vulnerability, and be all that his father wanted him to be.
There can be no more vulnerable place than be aniled to the cross, naked and beaten, and then to live with the scars of all that happening.
As i reflect upon my life, and the life that christ is calling me to live, i am increasingly aware of the scars, the vulnerability, but yet the reality of christ with me through all of this, and guiding me to a beter place, a place where i can live with those scars, that vulnerability, and live the life he has for me.
no doubt as I continue my journey through my sbbatical there is much more to learn, to reflect upon, for me to realise and grow in, but recognising the scars first, the vulnerability, is often a painful place, but real place to start, and this is where i start from.